Telling the story of my past
Overcome with exhaustion
sadness, fear, and hurt
Thoughts haze and fog
Droopy eyelids blink
Head weighs heavy
Memories of trauma
Impossible to carry
Alone
Drive home safe
Collapse into bed
Open the window
Turn on the fan
Weighted blankets
Fetal position
Calves twitch
Intestines flutter
God whispers, “rest”
Weak eyelids closing
I whisper this prayer
God, I’m hurt and scared
This terror from my past
I can’t carry it alone
I need your armor
I need your love
I need you with me
Help me know
it’s safe to rest
Meet me, Jesus
in my worry
hurt and fear
Meet me, Jesus
in my room
on my bed
Make it safe
Make it safe
to sleep
to rest
to be alone
I trust you, Jesus
I surrender
Safe to rest
Safe to rest
Body, surrender
Body, rest
-Ruth Renee
05.16.2020
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