After 6 months of going through the nurse coaching processing as a client, I know without a doubt that my voice matters!
I am no longer afraid to publicly say what I think even if it is different than the majority. I have the courage to be me and am choosing from this day forward to accept others where they are.
What do you need to say out loud that you have not yet said? I challenge you to speak the truth in love, holding nothing back.
It’s okay to believe differently than those we love. Unity is not uniformity.
Unity is defined as “a thing forming a complex whole.”
A little something I read on Instagram that spoke deeply to my heart early this morning when sleep alluded me…
“Bring me the one who disagrees to my face but supports me behind my back. Bring me the one who takes risks a little far but pushes people to be better than they were today. Bring me the one who challenges me to rethink my perspective, to research before forming an opinion, and who has relentless faith that we will work out our differences and if we don’t, we’ll disagree cordially….
Bring me the messy ones.” @principal_jess
I’m so thankful for a mother who taught me, and continues to teach me, about unconditional love in spite of differences in beliefs, appearances, and talents.
Most everything I learned about love, I learned it first from my mother because of her relentless courage to choose faith over fear, love over hate, unity over division.
She taught me it’s okay to be messy, that it’s okay to be myself, that it’s okay to be different. She accepts me as I am, and holds space for me no matter the choices I make.
It is my hope for every human that you find your path and find your peace, wherever that may be.
It is my belief that we are on this earth to hold healing space for each other, no matter what.
I recently read this about God’s love, that it is not “as long as,” but “IN SPITE OF.” And I 100% agree!!
W H I L E I N M O R M O N I S M: I believed God’s love okwas conditional. I believed I was worthy of God’s love and saving grace through the temple covenants only…. AS LONG AS I paid my tithing perfectly AS LONG AS I kept the word of wisdom perfectly AS LONG AS I kept the law of chastity perfectly AS LONG AS I was honest in all my dealings AS LONG AS I had a perfect faith and perfect testimony without any room for doubt AS LONG AS I did everything asked of me by my Mormon leaders and prophets, perfectly.
I was filled with shame, anxiety, and depression because I felt unable to live up to the requirement of this God’s salvation. I felt unworthy because I was not perfect.
BUT, thank goodness for the God of grace that I know today.
A F T E R I LE F T M O R M O N I S M: the God of grace showed me that divine love is unconditional IN SPITE OF my unworthiness, imperfection, and sin.
God loves me, and saves me, just as I am… IN SPITE OF my dishonesty IN SPITE OF my immorality IN SPITE OF my anger IN SPITE OF my jealousy and pride IN SPITE OF my doubt IN SPITE OF all my faults IN SPITE OF my unworthiness and imperfection
I will never be worthy or perfect of God’s salvation despite all my best efforts. None of us will.
BUT IN SPITE OF my unworthiness, I am fully loved and saved by God just as I am!
No longer am I filled with shame. Rather these days, I am filled with God’s s righteousness, grace, hope, peace, and even JOY!!
I have never been more convicted of any truth than I am of this – JESUS ALONE IS MORE THAN ENOUGH! I am so grateful I realized that I do not need Mormon temple covenants to be saved and changed by grace. I am so thankful that I have direct access to the Father through the propitiation of Jesus. I’m so grateful that I realized I do not need a middle man to reveal God’s heart for me.
If you are struggling to feel worthy of God’s love, I invite you to consider where you can give yourself permission to let go. Where can you let go of the “as long as” conditional love you have been believing, and step into the “in spite of” love that sets us free?
If you are open to receiving prayer, this is my prayer for you…May the God of Hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing. May Jesus alone be the anchor of your soul and your Great High priest. May you accept Jesus into your heart by grace alone, knowing that we are saved by this sacrifice alone. Our bodies are now the temples in which God dwells.
Love is patient, love is kind. Love is not easily angered, and love keeps no record of wrongs. If I have not love, I am nothing.
Welcome to my raw, authentic, messy and brave nurse coaching world! I’d love to introduce myself to everyone.
My name is Ruth Renee, and my favorite colors are turquoise and deep blue. To me, these colors signifies healing, inner wisdom, and boldly speaking the truth in love.
It took me many years to discover how powerful and needed my voice truly is!!
For too long, I believed lies that I was not enough, that I was not worthy, that I was not lovable, loving, or loved.
CW//brief mention of sexual abuse
When I was 7 years old, I was sexually abused for a short time. It shattered me in a profound way. But because of my courage and faith in God, I continually persisted forward. I take the next right step in faith, and I can now trust that God will not fail me.
Today, I accept who I am and where I have been. I know that my past does not define me. It may have shaped and molded me for a season, but God transformed me in a way that I will forever be grateful. In God’s image and by His love, I am forever changed. A new creation! A beautiful butterfly who now knows that she has wings and was always meant to fly!!
My purpose as a nurse coach is to help other women heal and move beyond the ashes of destruction, lies, and limiting beliefs trapped in their hearts and minds. It is the pure desire of my heart to be an advocate for real and lasting change. As a nurse coach, I gently guide other women toward healing and grace, toward receiving the perfect love that only God can give. “We love because he first loved us.”
If you don’t feel lovable, loving, or loved, please know that I have been where you are now. I appreciate how hard it is and how alone you may feel. I plead with you to not suffer in silence, to not isolate, to not believe the lies playing over and over in your head. Please know that I am here hoping and praying that you never give up on yourself!
Many times, I wanted to give up. Unfortunately, trauma patterns had a strong hold on me for a season because I believed the lies told to me by unsafe people. But, God sent believers into my life to be the hands, feet, and heart of Jesus; to show me sincere loving kindness in a way that I had not been able to receive for many years. Right place, divine timing! I give the glory to God for saving me. But I did play a part. I prayed for angels and God sent many beautiful souls to help me heal and learn to trust again. I believed in faith that God would help me. I took the first step in courageously bold prayer.
If you feel lost, I am here. If you are afraid, I am here. If you feel hopeless, I am here holding on to Hope against Hope until you can trust and believe for yourself that you are beautiful and loved, just as you are. You are perfectly imperfect, and God made you just as you are for a unique purpose. I am here to be your guide, to help you see the light and truth until your vision becomes more clear. I am here to help you get out of your own way so that you can be the bright light you were created to be. I am here without judgment, control, or manipulation. I am here carrying gentleness, grace, empathy, even courage and peace. I would love to share these gifts God has given me. You are worth it. Your greatest identity is as a child of God.
If you are struggling to feel hope, I would love to be a bridge to peace. I would love to be a light on your path to help you see the way forward to hope. You were fearfully and wonderfully made to receive God’s love and grace so that he can carry you home. I believe with all my heart, might, mind, and strength that God is for you. You are created by love, for love. To love and be loved. It is wired in your DNA to be connected to God and to other people. Please know that there are safe people to whom you can reach out! I would be honored to be that person who holds a safe nurturing space for you. A rich soil to help you blossom and grow.
As a nurse coach, I am passionate about helping other women feel wholly confident in their own skin. I am believing for you until you can fully believe in yourself that “all things are possible when we believe.” God is a promise keeper and a “man of His word!”
So many women come to me for help because they believe the lie that they are not enough. I am right here, right now telling you that this is simply not true!!!
God created YOU just as you are for a reason. You are fearfully and wonderfully made because you have a purpose and you are UNIQUE, SPECIAL. and LOVED! God wants to prosper you and give you a hope and a future, not harm you. GOD IS FOR YOU!! f you believe, then all things are possible. This is my faith and my hope. Empathy and desire for restoration is what motivates me to get out of bed each and every day.
If you would like to connect, please consider reaching out to have a conversation. You don’t have to live in fear. You don’t have to suffer alone. I am here. I see you. I believe you, and I believe in you. You are more than enough. You are worth it! You are not alone.
I’m so curious, where do you find even the tiniest spark of hope? Focus there and remember that HOPE is the belief to “Hold On, Pain Ends!”
Growing up, I was seen by others as the shy, QUIET kid. I was introspective. I was a deep thinker, but I was not quiet. Maybe with strangers who didn’t know me. But with my family, I was carefree, loud, even rambunctious at times!!
For too much of my life, I let others define me. It took years of healing and separating myself from the crowd in order for me to realize that it’s okay to speak up when I see things differently. It’s okay to speak my truth. It’s okay to be different.
Last week, I made a bold decision to speak the truth at an even louder level. And ever since then, I have felt MORE FREE to be even less quiet and speak more of my truth! I am who God says I am, not how others perceive me.
And I am BOLD! I am STRONG! I AM COURAGEOUS!!
I choose to be seen and heard! I am safe to be seen and heard. I honor the part of me that remained QUIET in order to remain SAFE, but staying quiet no longer keeps me safe. I CHOOSE FREEDOM AND PEACE by BOLDLY SPEAKING THE TRUTH IN LOVE!!
I will not go gently or silently into the night. Shame lives in the silence, in the dark. I choose to let light shine out of darkness. I choose to rage against the dying light.
Will you JOIN me?
“Do not go gentle into that good night, Old age should burn and rave at close of day; Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right, Because their words had forked no lightning they Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay, Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight, And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way, Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay, Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
And you, my father, there on the sad height, Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night, Rage, rage against the dying of the light.”
To my reader, where has being quiet held you back? Where can you give yourself permission to speak up, to boldly speak the truth in love, to “rage against the dying of the light?”
If you’re interested in becoming a more assertive advocate for yourself, please email me at email@example.com. I would LOVE to coach you!
“Do not go gentle into that good night, Rage, rage against the dying of the light.” ~ Dylan Thomas
So what if they don’t care what you think?! Let your voice be heard anyway, and remain unattached to the outcome. Nothing may happen now, but you never know the ripple effect you may have. What is the cost of not saying anything?
There is power in letting your thoughts and feelings be heard…no matter how they are received!
Wherever you are, whatever you are struggling with….what if you stand up for yourself, and let your voice be heard, no matter the outcome?!
Be an advocate! Be a leader! Be a voice of reason!! Use your God-given powerful voice and speak your truth!!
If you feel as if you don’t have a voice or a choice, I want to remind you that you do!! I encourage you to use your voice and speak up. Your breath is not wasted, no matter the outcome.
FREEDOM is the promise you claim when you choose to speak the truth in love. I believe in you. I am here to hold space for you if you need someone to listen and encourage you.
I am here to help you find your authentic voice and the courage to speak your truth.
To all you who are struggling to speak up, I see you. I am here for you. I believe in you. I am living proof that change is possible.
Remember, you are loved! You are worth it! You are enough — period!!!
Real power comes when you choose to live in the truth of who you are, when you choose to be nothing other than your authentic self.
You are a beautiful soul! Please don’t ever give up on yourself!!
If you are afraid to speak up at work, at home, at school, or wherever you are suffering….I am here for you. You are not alone.
I can be reached by email at firstname.lastname@example.org
The most important thing I’ve learned about transformation is that we get there the quickest by slowing down, by speaking our truth in love, and by becoming who we truly are at the deepest level.
When you slow down, you can hear yourself think. You can sort the clutter of all the voices in your head until you can encounter your own.
You must let all the other voices go, and only then can you have a clear conversation with God. Only then can you discover who you really are!
For the first time, you meet your most authentic self without all the noise of the world telling you who you are and who you are to become.
You then have a choice…to share or not to share your most authentic self with the world. To be brave enough to truly be yourself, to JUST BE YOU, to speak your truth in love.
Your authentic voice matters! When you do not speak your truth, you abandon a part of yourself. It becomes harder to love all of yourself!!!
One of the most important things I’ve learned about being able to love myself is that authenticity matters! I matter!! My story matters. My authentic voice matters!!!
When you speak the truth in love, you step into being more fully alive, more fully you, more fully connected to God, grace, understanding and knowing. Knowing that this is the one life we have to live on this earth, HERE AND NOW.
When you hold back, when you shift your words to what others want to hear, a part of you dies inside, a part of your awareness fades away.
You step into living only half alive. And piece by piece, you continue to fade away, and the real you slowly dies.
If I could tell the world just one thing, it would be this…YOU MATTER, YOUR VOICE MATTERS, YOUR AUTHENTIC VOICE MATTERS, YOU ARE ENOUGH!!!
I’ve been doing healing work and trusting the process of transformation for quite a few years now.
I have many regrets of who I was and how I behaved in the past, but I am not my past. The slate is wiped clean.
When we transform, we step into grace and beauty, into knowing and understanding that no one is worthy, no one is perfect.
We all make mistakes. We all lose hope.
It’s okay to let others know you struggle. It’s okay to be vulnerable. It’s okay to give yourself permission to be you. I want to hear what YOU think, what YOU believe, what YOU feel, not how the world tells you to be.
I am here cheering you on. If you feel you have to hide a part of you, if you feel you can’t love yourself, or can’t let the world see ALL OF YOU, I am here cheering you on to just be you, to SPEAK YOUR TRUTH IN LOVE.
I know you can step into being you, loving you, accepting you.
I struggle with anxiety, depression, and complex PTSD. Thoughts of hating myself return from time to time, but I no longer live in the world of self-hate and abandoning myself, abandoning my voice.
I know that what I have to say is important. I know that I matter, that my authentic voice matters.
And I choose to speak the truth in love. I choose to live more fully alive each and every new day.
Today, I live in the world of hope and never giving up, the world of climbing every mountain, the world of giving myself permission to rest when I am weary and tired.
Today , I choose to step out of darkness into the light.
Mother’s Day….the truth is that it isn’t always so easy.
I have some resentment issues popping up around my son not wanting to go on Mother’s Day outings today, but I’m trying to look at other victories and come from a place of service and sacrifice, rather than expectation. That was me last year, and it didn’t go well. Today I choose to give my worries and painto God, so I can settle into appreciation and hope.
For Mother’s Day this year, I planned ahead. I invited my kids to an outing I think we will all enjoy. Foot massages are scheduled with my daughter, and then we will get take out for a picnic at the lake, my favorite spot in the city. The place I go when I need to be in nature, when I need to clear my mind, the spot I took my kids to feed ducks when they were little. The place I took my mother to visit when she was in town for my birthday. So many wonderful memories!!!
A few days ago, I pulled out the cricut machine and the scrapbook supplies and created a homemade invite for Mother’s Day. I dropped it off for my kids at their dad’s, to let my son know the invitation is still open if he changes his mind. If not, I can respect his decision.
So while I’m sad my son is not coming, I dived into the resentment a bit deeper this morning. I released the hurt and pain. I uprooted the bitterness from my heart.
I then had space to connect with God to see the good things I have and what has changed and gotten better since last year. I looked at what is true. And I feel a little more peaceful, a little less sad. I released my worries to God, and I know that God’s timing is perfect. I know that reconciliation with my son is happening at its own pace.
Complex PTSD blew my family apart like a nuclear bomb, but God is putting it back together in a new way, healing the broken relationships between me and my children, reconciling hearts. He has already done it with my daughter. He brought her home just last week. His timing is perfect. And I can surrender my timing and my will to Him.
I know Mother’s Day isn’t always easy and I want you all to know I’m praying today for healing over mother-child relationships, praying for comfort for those who’ve lost their mother, for mothers who have lost children, and for those who are struggling to connect in the way they want with their mother or child. I’m praying for those who struggle with infertility. Praying peace over today for all of you wonderful imperfect humans, mothers, and children!!
My mother taught me to hold onto “Hope against Hope.” She taught me what a mother’s love is. When the time is right, when my son is ready, I know he and I will reconcile. God has brought so much healing to my family, and HE IS NOT FINISHED YET!!!
God is my anchor and he gives me the ability to love as he loves, to bear all things, believe all things, hope all things, endure all things. And I’m so thankful for my mother who taught me these truths, passed on the gifts of strength, hope, love.
“Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.” – 1 Corinthians 13:7
Through all of my heartache and struggle, the most important lesson I’ve learned is this….God’s love for us is so much bigger than the love with which we love our own children.
Praying you feel God’s love and healing presence today!!
Ruth Renee RN
Student Nurse Wellness Coach
Is there any small space of resentment or pain you can witness and release to clear space for hope, love, gratitude, and truth? ❤️
May God bless you and keep you, and be a refuge for you in times of heartache and trouble.
For it is you who light my lamp; the Lord my God lightens my darkness. For by you I can run against a troop, and by my God I can leap over a wall. This God—his way is perfect; the word of the Lord proves true; he is a shield for all those who take refuge in him.” – Psalm 18:28-20 ESV