Fabulously Forty & Free…

I often struggle with feeling good enough because I haven’t reached my ideal of perfection by a self-imposed deadline. I frequently get down on myself because I’m still a work in progress.

As I approach 40, I realize that chasing perfection in this life is akin to a rabbit running on a wheel chasing a dangling carrot just out of reach.

As long as I am breathing, I will be imperfect and make mistakes. Yet my faults do not make me unlovable; they make me human.

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I am slowly learning to be okay with my mistakes, to own them, and accept who I am, a child of God. My identity is in Him alone. That is how I find peace.

My greatest failure would be to believe I will ever be a finished masterpiece in this life. God loves me too much to ever stop helping me grow in the Holy Spirit, to ever stop helping me push beyond human limits.

My greatest strength comes not in rising on my own, but in turning to God, trusting Him, letting Him love me every time I fall. It is only in God that I am lifted above the madness of this world, that I am given real freedom.

Ruth Renee

11-15-2019

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Ruth Renee

I was raised Mormon, but left Mormonism in my 30s. At 40, I simply believe in a personal relationship with Jesus. He abides in me as I abide in His word, the Bible. I was born and raised in Southern California. I attended BYU in Utah and graduated with a BSN RN. I lived in Michigan and worked as a nurse there and when my ex-husband and I moved to Texas with our first child, a son. My second child, a daughter is Texas born and raised through and through. I love Texas. Been in Dallas for 13 years. Being a California girl, I must vacation to the beach every summer. I love gardening, exploring, simply being outdoors in nature, especially with the mature trees and large bodies of water. Beside writing, I enjoy photography, modern calligraphy, painting. I love to teach my children, and encourage them in their creative endeavors. God closed the door on my nursing career about 7 years ago. During those years, God has been healing me from childhood trauma. In the past 2 years since Jesus came after me, my life has been transformed! I live my life one day at a time, always seeking spiritual growth and closeness to God. It took nearly 40 years for me to come to believe I could trust God,and in turn, flern to trust myself. No matter what happens, I know God is with me, so I move forward with faith, hope, and joy!

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