A year can change everything…

What a difference a year and prayer makes!

I am still learning to trust God each morning, each time I feel scared.

I never asked to live with complex PTSD.

I would never wish on another living soul the nightmares, flashbacks, confusion, triggers turned into moments of terror.

But my complex PTSD reminds me I am human and can never do this life without God. It leads me to prayer and the word of God.

He comforts me and calms my wounded heart.

Today, the pain I live with humbles me, and reminds me I am only strong when I allow the Lord to carry me….the hardest truth and love for me to accept.

The pain pushes me to write, so that I may make myself and others aware of the love Jesus offers me, the most precious love of all.

I don’t always understand God’s plan for me, but I am trying to live His way by faith.

I am believing prayer works, and we are never alone.

I choose authentic over perfect.

Perfection is too great a burden to bear.

I am human. I allow myself to make mistakes, and not go into a shame spiral for it.

Admitting I can’t do it all was a hard pill to swallow.

I’m ready to do things God’s way.

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Ruth Renee

I was raised Mormon, but left Mormonism in my 30s. At 40, I simply believe in a personal relationship with Jesus. He abides in me as I abide in His word, the Bible. I was born and raised in Southern California. I attended BYU in Utah and graduated with a BSN RN. I lived in Michigan and worked as a nurse there and when my ex-husband and I moved to Texas with our first child, a son. My second child, a daughter is Texas born and raised through and through. I love Texas. Been in Dallas for 13 years. Being a California girl, I must vacation to the beach every summer. I love gardening, exploring, simply being outdoors in nature, especially with the mature trees and large bodies of water. Beside writing, I enjoy photography, modern calligraphy, painting. I love to teach my children, and encourage them in their creative endeavors. God closed the door on my nursing career about 7 years ago. During those years, God has been healing me from childhood trauma. In the past 2 years since Jesus came after me, my life has been transformed! I live my life one day at a time, always seeking spiritual growth and closeness to God. It took nearly 40 years for me to come to believe I could trust God,and in turn, flern to trust myself. No matter what happens, I know God is with me, so I move forward with faith, hope, and joy!

2 thoughts on “A year can change everything…”

  1. Long time supporter, and thought I’d drop a comment.

    Your wordpress site is very sleek – hope you don’t mind me asking what theme you’re using?

    (and don’t mind if I steal it? :P)

    I just launched my site –also built in wordpress like
    yours– but the theme slows (!) the site down quite a bit.

    In case you have a minute, you can find it by searching for “royal cbd” on Google (would appreciate any feedback)
    – it’s still in the works.

    Keep up the good work– and hope you all take care of yourself
    during the coronavirus scare!

    Like

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