Let your love be greater than your fear…

“Let your love be greater than your fear.”

In this moment, I feel a calm peace in my heart after feeling the pain of what felt like a heart attack….a stabbing tightness in my chest, accompanied by anxiety and fear.

In order for my heart to stop hurting, I had to let myself be still. I had to breathe deeply to find the place in my heart where love is greater than fear.

I’ve done a lot of trauma and grief work these last few years. It’s been a roller coaster. I’ve cried and panicked a lot, but I’ve also been smiling bigger and laughing more, letting others love me more, accepting I can’t do it all alone.

The key has been to let go, surrender, and let real love in, something very difficult for me. Real love can be scary, because I know the pain of losing it at a young age.

I am stubborn. I don’t always ask for help. I make a lot of mistakes. I push others away. So, if you’ve been determined enough to love me anyway, I just have to say this now….

Thank you for opening your heart to me.

Thank you for sharing a piece of your soul .

Thank you for encouraging me and praying for me.

Thank you for being a part of my soul journey.

Thank you for helping me find my way back to love.

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Ruth Renee

I was raised Mormon, but left Mormonism in my 30s. At 40, I simply believe in a personal relationship with Jesus. He abides in me as I abide in His word, the Bible. I was born and raised in Southern California. I attended BYU in Utah and graduated with a BSN RN. I lived in Michigan and worked as a nurse there and when my ex-husband and I moved to Texas with our first child, a son. My second child, a daughter is Texas born and raised through and through. I love Texas. Been in Dallas for 13 years. Being a California girl, I must vacation to the beach every summer. I love gardening, exploring, simply being outdoors in nature, especially with the mature trees and large bodies of water. Beside writing, I enjoy photography, modern calligraphy, painting. I love to teach my children, and encourage them in their creative endeavors. God closed the door on my nursing career about 7 years ago. During those years, God has been healing me from childhood trauma. In the past 2 years since Jesus came after me, my life has been transformed! I live my life one day at a time, always seeking spiritual growth and closeness to God. It took nearly 40 years for me to come to believe I could trust God,and in turn, flern to trust myself. No matter what happens, I know God is with me, so I move forward with faith, hope, and joy!

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